THURSDAY? REALLY?

I cannot believe it is almost Christmas. I didn't even know it was Thursday. But, a look at the calendar confirms it is Thursday. Officially it is Friday. DANG!! Slow down just a little bit, please!

Robert and I went to the doctor in New Bern today. He prescribes meds for depression. He was shocked at how quickly Robert's condition has progressed. I say condition because we have yet to have a diagnosis. In the past two days we have been heartened by the response of the medical people we have seen. It is clear they recognize the severity of the situation and that they truly care. Though nothing has changed physically the response of the medical professionals has encouraged us. We both needed to be heard and validated. It was a difficult trip. Robert is not walking well at all so I help him in and out of the car and then help him make it to our destination. It is taxing for him and exhausting for me. When someone says to most of us that things can and probably will change in ways we cannot think or imagine they are telling the truth. I have no previous experience in this level of caretaking and Robert certainly has not been limited physically and mentally to the degree this "whatever" has taken him.

Home health care is going to come out and help us find ways to make the house more user friendly for someone like Robert. This means that I have major cleaning to do before they make a visit. Fortunately that has not been set-up yet. I don't' feel grown-up enough to handle all of this but when I look around I realize that many people are handling stuff like this and I'm betting they don't feel so grown-up at times. Because I am 62 years of age I am more aware now of debilitating illnessess and the fullness of caretaking.

Guess who is in my bedroom staying warm from the cold night? Yep, the outside cat. Tigger! Beautiful orange and golden cat with eyes that look like jewels matching the coat he wears so well. It isn't my plan to make this cat and inside cat. We don't need four cats inside. Lawdy, lawdy! I am a soft touch.

Gotta get to bed. Night, Y'all!