Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

 I spent the majority of the past 11 hours in hospitals and the doctor's office. Once again they could not find the reason for my symptoms which were dramatic enough that I seriously considered going to the emergency room before I called my doctor. So I feel lousy, cannot breathe well and antibiotics, stearoids and magic potions have not changed my condition. I made a decision. If I am not sick then I must be well. Until something happens that shows itself and can be identified I am going to live as if I feel great even if I have to struggle with every breath I breathe. No telling how much I have spent on doctors and medications and tests for symptoms that appear to support my general health diagnosis and the tests are good. I have good everything but I feel sick. Something is going on that cannot be identified so I am going to act as if there is nothing to be identified. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. If I feel lousy I am going to carry on with my life. I am going to "act as if" I am well. I have put it in God's hands. He loves me. He will reveal what I need to know when and if it is necessary. Until then my answer to questions about my health are going to be that I am doing well. Fit as a fiddle, in fact, and glad to be here. I don't know that I will ever get my medical debt paid as it stands at this very moment. I am God's and He will carry this for me. If I have a need to know then He will make it known. Until that time I declare myself to be fit as a fiddle.