WHY??

Why won't I go to bed and get some sleep? I have to be up at 3:45 and I have been planning to go to bed for over 2 hours. Why won't I go? Find a song on youtube and listen to four more. Watch three Bones episodes on Netflix, read Facebook twice and the list goes on. Go to bed, darlin'. You need your rest. Mama said I tried to stay awake from an early age. She sat outside and endured my crying until I stopped. She came in my room and I had gone fast asleep standing up and draped over the crib railing. Mama said she always thought I was afraid I was going to miss out on something. Dad was a nightowl. Mom is a nightowl. My sister is a nightowl and so are a number of other family members. But I need my rest. I say I want to feel better. I say I want to get well. So why, for the love of Pete, won't I go to sleep? Got it off my chest. Going to bed now. Two hours later than planned and a 3:45 alarm set. I never said I was real smart when it comes to self-discipline. I may be smart in other ways but it does me no good when I need self-discipline. Trudging the happy road of destiny....night!